Conclusion 2 - The Fear
I have given a lot of thought about what it is, this thing with all my fears and I have come to one conclusion. I think I have been so afraid of everything here because it is so unknown and I can´t read the signals.
In BCN for example I know which area not to go into, I can recognise a dodgy street when I see it and I can read the situations. Here I can´t. Everything is so different, the streets, the people, the behaviours. I think that is what is frightening - to not be able to read your environment and therefor you feel completely lost - clueless. And the feeling of not understanding, of not being in control is what creates the Fear. Maybe?